• 9 months ago
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    I've missed Egg a lot recently. It comes in waves then goes for a while. I don't like saying it because his family must feel it far more than I ever do and I feel kinda fake, I'm just a guy 5k miles away! Imagine how much his mom or sister felt. It's always hard to say the truth I think sometimes. It's silly things like when he joined Facebook and told Claire to buy me Erdinger lol. It popped up as a memory the other day and this is one of the reasons why I still even have Facebook. I loved that kid, truly and honestly he was one of a kind. If he was your friend he was your friend, they was no faking he was true to his word, if he said it he did it.

    I really do miss Egg. It hasn't gotten easier really, and I do wish he was here to share my stories with. I know he'd have loved Isabella and all her antics.Everytime I log in to Facebook or Steam his picture is there and it always will be. I honestly have bad days when I feel heartbroken when I realise that I miss him. But hey come on, the world keeps turning.
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      Editing … And thinking of egg has made me beat myself up a bit as it always does. Was I really a good friend to him? Could I have stopped what happened? Looking back now all the signs were there egg didn't hide anything and even told me he was buying a gun. He was lonely since Kyle moved out and was having a bad time at work. Instead of bantering as I always do could I have been a bit more kind? I guess I have learned from that because I am more kind these days.
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      Editing … I think his family would be happy to hear you still think of him so much. He still lives on then in some form and he probably left his mark on you in a very good way. Egg was always very sweet. It was quite a shock to hear of his death. I'm happy you was such a good friend to him. He really deserved a friend like that even if it was just online and 5k miles away.
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      Editing … I was just watching an interview with Chris Ryan the famous SAS soldier and it brought me back to this. He said that he had guilt for years about people that had died. If he'd just done this or that maybe it would be different. So I think it's just a natural grieving process, I mean I'm not happy about it but I have to accept that Egg was a grown adult and made his choices.
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      Editing … There was this lady that was specialized in grieving or something that talked about this on a podcast. She said it is healthy and normal to feel this way. It's because you care about the person that you feel guilty or responsible. Usually people will tell you you should not feel guilty when you are grieving because you did not do anything wrong and that is true of course, but it may be good to acknowledge those feelings as well because the feeling shows you felt responsible for him and that you cared. You cared a lot about him but now you have no place to put that care anymore. It's not something you can shake off, she said but it gets better if you do proper grieving and keep their memory alive.
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      Editing … Yeah, I just wish egg was still here :(
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      Editing … It seems to help some people to "speak" to the deceased friend or family member and tell them everything that they had wanted to say or do and experience with them. It sounds weird and cheesy at first but it really seems to help people to process all the "should haves", "if onlys" and missed opportunities. I guess you should just feel that shit and not suppress it and hide it away. Grieving is part of life and I think it should be more part of society as a whole. Here we do nothing to grieve. We just plop someone into the ground and that's the end of it and we never talk about the person again. It's a sign of a very shallow view on death I think. Very Dutch.
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      Editing … What is your favorite egg memory?
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      Editing … I can't pick one. But if forced I'd say our very first interaction. I said I like this egg guy(you were in the conversation Klem, you and mancannon) and later on he brought it up that I said I liked him. So that meant something to me that it meant something to him.
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    Let's have a listen to one of Egg's favourite songs today: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YbKN7OrqTxQ
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      Editing … The Decemberists are so good. Egg had good taste in music.
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  • 2 years ago
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    It's 4 years tomorrow guys! It has gone by so quick, but I still miss him a lot. Every time I go on Steam, Messenger or Facebook I see his name/picture.

    I'm a day early this year because I'm having emergency surgery to reattatch my bicep soon. One year I'll actually get here on the actual day.
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      Editing … Indeed as Papissama is already five years ago...
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      Editing … Good luck with the surgery.
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      Editing … Thanks. Looks like I'm here on the day after all, my surgery is now at 0730 tomorrow morning. I might even stick around a while if I'm going to be off work for months, play some games too and rate them like thd good old days perhaps. And I noticed klem made her triumphant return so it will be good to chat with her too.
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      Editing … Rest in peace Eggman and Papissama. You are missed by many.
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      Editing … It's good to see you Klem!
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      Editing … Nod what did you do to get your bicep detatched? Yeah good luck with the surgery. I hope I never need surgery. The idea of strangers doing things to my unconscious body freakes me out.
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      Editing … One of the ratchet straps on my trucks trailer was either overtightened or faulty and it wouldn't release. Normally you just have to pull really hard whilst pulling the handle to release but this one was super stuck and my bicep tendon gave up the tug of war first.
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      Editing … ow! Sounds like a bad time. Is your boss covering your damages?
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      Editing … I have no idea what he's paying me yet, it only happened last Thursday. I might be making a claim anyway if this injury ends up permanent. best case scenario he pays me full wages and the surgery goes perfectly. Worst case scenario I only get sick pay and the injury isn't fixed properly. I imagine I'll get enough in damages to pay off my house but I think I'd rather have my arm to be honest.
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      Editing … Yeah. Keep your arm. Can't surf pornhub and fap at the same time with only one arm... I mean carry you beautiful little girl with only one arm. I hope the surgeons do a good job. I hear when they reattach muscles, sometimes the muscle gets stronger because it is shorter or something. Maybe you’ll get that too.
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  • 3 years ago
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    Logged in today because this week was the 3rd anniversary of Egg's passing. That kid meant a lot to me and it got me thinking about shit. If nothing else I'll meet ya'll here 9th Feb 2022 to celebrate him. Put it in your diaries.
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      Editing … @Husky, @Jamie and I were thinking about putting something nice and unique up on his profile page, similar to Pape's. But we never got around to doing it because there are so many TODOs. Do you happen to have any ideas how it could look, what it could say, or do you happen to have a nice photo of him?
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      Editing … As far as pictures go, bearded Egg is best Egg. (Totally not biased, honest).
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      Editing … Yeah, we need beard egg!
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      Editing … Did he post a beard picture in the forums?
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      Editing … Yeah. If you can't find it I still have his Facebook so can send you it.
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      Editing … Honestly, that would be great. I see he has posted a lot of pictures in the forums, some on tinyurl which has ceased operations.
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  • 5 years ago
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    Thanks again everybody that donated money for egg's mum some flowers. Here's the order, and the total price after tax was £133.51 so I put in £35 in the end. I wasn't sure what she'd like so I picked some nice looking flowers that fit roughly into what money we had.

    https://scontent.fhuy2-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/51177906_10213909957524598_782165127158824960_o.jpg?_nc_cat=100&_nc_eui2=AeH2QRAhiko4UuLjwyDcZejVJECOzk8VsFH4ZBpa4fqwZSVIWJNtpFrbEczxsaPWkKrpJlRGIKIFRqYhau0jQYdawizClOU8RrBBNTIxjvScTg&_nc_ht=scontent.fhuy2-1.fna&oh=daf96a30a44c5fa409725dcbb71503e5&oe=5CE8BFD0
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      Editing … What did you write?
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      Editing … I put something about us never forgetting egg and we hope she likes the flowers from everybody at Favslist.
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  • 5 years ago
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    I'll probably close the pool tonight after work guys and order the flowers. I can't guarantee I'll have time over the next few nights. Thanks again everybody that put money in. I'm still stuck for something to write so any help there will be awesome.
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    You've got until Wednesday to donate any money for Egg's mum guys.

    https://www.paypal.com/pools/c/8bFBX9VgxA

    Also, what shall I write on the note? You all contributed and they're from us all so we all get to choose.
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  • 5 years ago
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    For the guys here that don't use the forum I've set up a pool to buy Egg's mum some flowers from us all at Favslist. It's been nearly a year since he left us and just imagine his mums face when an enormous bunch of flowers arrive from Favslist.

    I know you're all skint right now, I am too, I'm not asking you to pay anything you can't afford. Even if you can just afford £1 it all helps, nobody expects you to put a lot in. Let's make his mum smile.

    https://paypal.me/pools/c/8bFBX9VgxA
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  • 5 years ago
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    I missed Egg these last couple of days. I started playing FFVIII again and I kept getting the urge to chat with him about it :(
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      Editing … I've been binging MLP for the past few weeks and wish he was around for me to talk about it with.
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      Editing … Wasn't there a ##Suicide Note? Surely there must be a reason why he did it.
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      Editing … Yes, he left a note. I know most of it but it's not up to me to share. Let's just say he was unhappy.
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      Editing … Why didn't he post it on Favslist? I'd make a scheduled Tumblr post with all the details...
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      Editing … It is all on Favslist and/or Favsbook if you know what to look for. He never said anything directly but a few little comments here and there all add up when you know.
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      Editing … either just tell us or don't. we're not batman
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      Editing … Not my problem you didn't join Favsbook and see our conversations, the offer was there.
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      Editing … was it because of a girl? he brought up that one girl, I figured he must have kind of missed her but as far as I knew it was a typical first crush and nothing severe.
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  • 5 years ago
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    It's Egg's 25th birthday today! I hope he's playing Persona 3 up in heaven.
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      Editing … He's probably showing random lists to a very confused Einstein or something
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      Editing … assume he started a discussion about my litte pony already
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      Editing … God will soon kick him into Hell if he has.
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      Editing … Deleted by himself
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      Editing … egg no longer exists, he is us now. (to look at it another way if there was one person left on earth then everyone would be that person) In fact I recently started playing Pokemon games, so I think I received a disproportionate piece of his soul.
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      Editing … Or he just no longer exists...
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      Editing … And there is no happy imagining or silver lining. That's it. It was a terrible thing that happened, and that's all it was and all it will ever be. Don't romanticize death. It is too horrible for that.
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      Editing … He exists in my memories s so will never be gone
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      Editing … I used to be like you though, I'd say death was the end, I was right because nobody could prove otherwise. I matured a lot when I had kids and then when I met my wife who introduced me into a loving, caring family that would actually be there. Since then a lot of my views have softened, especially religion. I still think God doesn't exist of course but you could say that I kind of follow the bibles teachings. Being lawful doesn't make you good.
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      Editing … material science can't explain consciousness, as far it's concerned consciousness doesn't even exist. So there is something unexplained there. But it may be true that the difference between one person and another is 100% material, so death is the end at least as far as that person's unique identity is concerned.
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